I feel so lonely My best friend gave birth to her first born earlier today. I feel so guilty because I can’t feel happy for her. Instead, I feel insanely jealous and just sad and empty. I really want children of my own but my husband isn’t ready and won’t be ready for a long time. By then I will be in my 30’s. I also work with children, so I am reminded constantly of how much I desire to have kids of my own. To top it off today… my friend named her daughter the same name I told her I chose for my (eventual) first born girl. I feel so bad for being petty and jealous but I can’t help it. I feel so lonely.